a little homemaking

So I am making dinner. While I make nanaimo bars for my husband. And cleaning the kitchen. I also swept the floors and fed the dogs. I am suzy the friggin homemaker. LMAO. Truthfully, I am tired today, which is normal... or should I say so fatigued I could go to bed now at 4:58. I need to see a doctor to figure out what is actually wrong with me and deal with it. But I have managed to find excuses not to go for a long time but am gradually running out of them. Is it depression which can cause lots of how I feel, chronic fatigue, or something worse? It is the something worse that also keeps me from going. What if it is something worse? And more and more I feel like I am cheating myself and my husband out of the best of me. I don't like being the one that goes to bed every night at 9PM and declines going out and doing things because I am toooooooo tired. Also a little more I am simply doing things anyway. I am tired of letting being tired run my life. So I have been busy the last number of weeks with all sorts of things... but then I pay on my days off... but that is OK.

I am still addicted to facebook. It has found lots of people I have always wondered about and led to lots of good memory reliving. Highschool and college. It reminds me that things don't always turn out the way we want or imagined but that it turns out the way it does for a reason. A reason not always understood by us but it's there nonetheless. I like big words on occassion. It reminds me that once I was a smart girl... not just someones coffee fetcher or pet caretaker. LOL. On that note, I am looking into a couple programs. I do not really know what I want to be when I grow up but dealing with animals feels right. Not as a vet, but maybe as a vetrinary assistant or animal welfare officer. Although, that may not be the best place for me as people who do not properly care for their pets piss me right off. If you are going to neglect, abuse your pet etc... why do you have one? Or many. and laws are frigginly small for people who abuse pets. Does everyone forget people who do bad things to animals often later turn that into bad things to other people.

Anyway, things I am thankful for today: chocolate chip cookies, tuna casserole (can you tell it is dinner time?), the sun actually shing today